I am exhausted even after sleeping 9+ hours last night. Damned bug/flu/creeping crud.  I have school stuff to do, which I’ll get to here in a minute.  

Good news is that we’ll eventually own this house that we’re renting now. Heck of a birthday present, I’d say.  I still want my Mac, though.  

Bills resulting from my accident in June will be paid in full by their insurance, praise Jesus for that!  There’s no way I can afford $300+ in medical bills.  Yes, I know that is a low number, but when you are on a fixed income like I am, it’s a lot.  

Bills are paid, I have a roof, I’m fed every day, I have clean clothes, and I have access to (fairly) decent medical care.  I am very grateful for what I do have.  I don’t mean to ramble, but I needed to remind myself that I am indeed very lucky, and very blessed.

Hopefully I can stay awake long enough to finish school stuff!

Why are some posts showing as failed when I knoe fully wekk that they’ve been posted to the right service?  Bueller?  Could be a posterous glitch, not sure

I am resting today, as the creeping crud known as a bad cold has taken up residence in my lungs.  Schoolwork, then heavy doses of mindless TV are in order.

Ta everyone

I realized something just a few minutes ago.  I avoid school.  No, really.  I avoid it like the plague along with anything related to it.  Why?  Because I’ve been harped on in the past, and I mean negative harping like “C’mon, let’s go, get working on it.” or things like, “are you done yet? are you?” It was like constant badgering, I can’t even tell you all the negative stuff because I can’t remember it.

I understand that one can care about another’s grades.  But someone getting upset that I don’t study the way they do, I can’t seem to wrap my mind around a rigid schedule.  I freeze up and start to panic.  I’m not doing it right, I’m not getting straight As, etc.  I care about school, I want to do well, and I’m completely freaking out.  I can’t concentrate, my mind is all over the place.  I don’t want to be put on more meds.

I’d better sign off, and use this time to work on my psych final…

I was up at o god thirty to head to a medical appointment, ride was late picking me up but I got there early.  Waited a while because they had to find a room big enough to accommodate me and my extra equipment (hoyer lift + wheelchair + aide) I started to get anxious, remembering the bad experience I had a while ago at a different facility; I did do some deep breathing, and that helped a lot.  What really clinched it was when the doctor talked me through it step by step, he made me look at him.  LOL.  It worked though and they’ll call me with the results.

Got home around 1:00 pm, ate, took morning medicine, and then asked to be put in bed for a nap.  Felt darn good to sleep.  

Did homework, and will start planning out my final projects and starting them.  There will be a more in depth post coming soon, but right now, I’ll sign off.

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